Arizona Wilder

Born Jennifer Ann Nagel. Jennifer married and became Jennifer Ann Greene, and today she is remarried to a Canadian citizen and goes by the name Jennifer Ann Kealey. As a former mind controlled victim within governmental and Illuminati circles,
she was one of only three women under mind controlled programming within these circles known as: Mother Goddess.

The story of Arizona Wilder is to date, one of the most disturbing, gruesome, outlandish, fascinating and confusing tales ever told within the conspiracy disclosure movements and truth researching. 



Arizona Wilder is the alias name that made Jennifer Ann (then) Greene famous within the network of researchers of science, mind control, Satanic rituals, the Illuminati and the New World Order.

It is not known wether Arizona Wilder continuously have been under different kinds of mind control programming, also during her years of “recovering of memories and regaining her personal freedom”.  In fact little is known about who and what Arizona Wilder aka Jennifer Ann Kealy of today really is. One fact remains though, something exstremely exstra-ordinary has shaped her life.

Arizona Wilder first came to prominence with the release of David Icke’s book “The Biggest Secret”, as rare “evidence” for his theory that the world is dominated by shape-shifting reptilians from other dimensions. The book’s index has the entry, “Wilder, Arizona – see Mother Goddess”, and she describes human sacrifice rituals involving the Pope, the Clintons, the Reagans, both George Bushes, various members of the Royal Family, the Rothchilds, the Rockefellers and the  likes of Bob Hope and other celebrities. These summoned “snarling, hideous creatures” – how they distinguished them from participating politicians is unclear. Here’s her description of the Queen: “I have seen her sacrifice people and eat their flesh and drink their blood. One time she got so excited with blood lust that she didn’t cut the victim’s throat from left to right in the normal ritual, she just went crazy, stabbing and ripping at the flesh after she’d shape shifted into a reptilian. When she shape-shifts, she has a long reptile face, almost like a beak, and she’s an off-white colour”, she describes to David Icke in “The Biggest Secret”. You can get a videotape of an interview with her by David Icke called “Revelations Of A Mother Goddess”.  Another opportunity to see Wilder speak occurred at the 2003 Conspiracy Con in Santa Clara.

Though if any of it is true, her life has been a harrowing one. She was born with her destiny as a cult figurehead already predetermined, and was ritually abused as part of her indoctrination. This included trips to Moscow as a young child, where she was immersed in cold water to bring on near-death experiences which would awaken her latent psychic abilities, and her chief handler was Nazi scientist Joseph Mengele; “These creatures who rule our planet can’t enter our dimension on their own; they need to be anchored here with a sacrifice, and need adrenalchrome to keep them in human form. This chemical only comes into the blood when the victim has been tortured and traumatised” – Arizona’s job was to preside over the ceremonies and act as a conduit for the reptilians. In her role as a “Mother Goddess”, she was scheduled to be killed at the age of 52, by her daughter Kelly (which is the name of all daughters born by mind controlled, ritually abused women) who would then take over the role.

After Josef Mengele’s death in the 1979, the psychological noose around her neck loosened, and some years later she escaped the cult’s clutches, going into therapy. Subsequently, she’s been harassed, beat up, and even drugged – a test showed positive for cocaine even though she claims never to have taken it.

Tied in with her supposed high-level role, her family are no commoners either, but “bloodline” – related (illegitimately) to the Rothschilds, and originating from the South of France. She claims to have been one of only three mother goddesses in the world. This, and how she was trained by Joseph Mengele himself.

Former David Icke associate Ivan Fraser wrote that, “her facts were either regularly wrong, or so full of spin that she was hardly credible.” He also mentions Wilder’s claim that the Reptillian royals change back when they sleep, which must have made Prince Charles’ time at Gordonstoun public school and in the armed forces very entertaining for those sharing his sleeping quarters. The most charitable explanation is that she was indeed abused horribly as a child, and her psyche has latched on to Icke’s reptilians as a way to rationalise her suffering. Under this hypothesis, she truly believes what she says. Wilder isn’t the only one to have such an associate lurking nearby – Cathy O’Brien, another alleged mind control victim, is rarely seen outside the company of her husband, ex-intelligence agent Mark Philips. Another figure of interest is Brian Desborough, who may have directed David Icke towards the reptilian theory, and subsequently introduced Wilder to him, a convenient “witness” to back up the facts. Perhaps significantly, Desborough has written articles on mind control.

Jennifer Ann Nagel had a seemingly normal upbringing in California, raised by her birth mother and a man she identified as her stepfather. Both of the Nagels were elementary school teachers.

Her memories of Satanic Reptilians were “recovered” during adult psychotherapy, like Lauren Stratford’s “memories”. In 1989, she realized her past contained large amounts of missing time. Gradually, over the course of a decade (1989-’99), she “recovered” memories of sexual abuse by her stepfather, mind control programming, and ritual abuse. She realized that her parents had been forced to move to California in her infancy so she could begin training as a high priestess in the Illuminati, which practices “Satanism” (basically Druidic Paganism with human sacrifice). California, she explained to Icke, is the international headquarters of the High Council.

Trauma-based mind control was used to “compartmentalize” young Jennifer with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) (the notion of “implanted” DID is discussed in the previous post about Illuminati slave Cisco Wheeler and Bryce Taylor). She was subjected to electroshock, sleep deprivation, sensory deprivation, sensory overload, and more sophisticated forms of mind control, including tri-tonal frequencies somewhat resembling Robert Monroe’s patented Hemi-Sync process. The programming was sometimes combined with elements of ancient Druidic rituals. Most of it was conducted on military bases, primarily China Lake Naval Base in the California desert. This particular locale was probably not a random choice on Wilder’s part; as mentioned in the Mengele section of the last post, in 1995 a woman named Chris Denicola told the Presidential Commission on Radiation that she had been subjected to torture and mind control programming by a Dr. Greene at China Lake in the ’60s and ’70s.

Wilder’s primary programmer was Josef Mengele, whom she (and numerous other government mind control victims) claim was brought into the U.S. under Project Paperclip to conduct horrific psychological experiments on children. “Former Illuminati Satanist” Bill Schnoebelen mentioned this in his Prophecy Club lecture “Exposing the Illuminati from Within” (c. 1996); “Mengele made little effort to disguise his physical appearance or his thick German accent, but called himself “Dr. Green” (the Green/Mengele meme is also explored at some length in the previous post).

Dr. Green introduced Jennifer to Illuminati Satanism, taking her to rituals in the U.S., France, and Britain. Her parents didn’t interfere, being under Illuminati mind control with Dissociative Identity Disorder themselves. Just in case they did object to her training, though, the Nagels were told their daughter had an IQ of 70 and required special attention. In elementary school, she was repeatedly transferred to different classrooms and seemed to have learning difficulties.

Wilder doesn’t speak much about her alter personalities, and she hasn’t made it clear if she is now integrated, or still suffers DID. In a 2001 presentation, she described one alter named “Alice in the Gray Place”, an artefact of Alice in Wonderland programming (according to Fritz Springmeier and Cisco Wheeler, many levels of government mind control are based on popular children’s books and movies, The Wizard of Oz being particularly favoured by the Illuminati).

Various groups within the Illuminati system schooled Jennifer in history, the paranormal arts, and ritual magic. She was taken to an underground military installation beneath Area 51 to meet cloned cyborg dolphin-alien hybrids known as cybers, as well as real aliens. At another military base, she was taught to communicate with dolphins, for some reason. At UCLA she was part of the parapsychological research conducted by Dr. Thelma Moss (in which Dr. Louis Jolyon West participated, she said). The Janus Group taught her how to psychically murder. When she was five years old, she was taken to Leningrad for psychic experiments jointly conducted by Soviet scientists and the KGB. The Soviets subjected young Jennifer to near-drowning in icewater on three separate occasions to induce Near Death Experiences, as part of their research. The Mothers of Darkness Castle in Belgium – Chateau des Amerois (also described in Fritz Springmeier’s books on the Illuminati) taught her that the Aryans came to Earth from Mars about 6000 years ago, after Mars was invaded by Reptilian aliens. The Reptilians followed them 2000 years later, masquerading as gods to fool humans into obeying them. By interbreeding with select Aryans, the Reptilians created an elite bloodline that persists to this day. Though they appear wholly human, they’re actually holographic projections surrounding 7′-12′ tall, bipedal Reptillians who can bip in and out of other dimensions at will. These alien-human hybrids maintain their human shape most of the time, but when exposed to human blood they go crazy and begin to lose control over their holographic projections, morphing into their lizard manifestations. Wilder and Icke referred to this as “shapeshifting”.

It was Jennifer’s job, as an Illuminati high priestess, to stand within a hexagram, a pentagram, and a triangle drawn on the ground and summon the evil “Old Ones”, ancient Reptilians from another dimension. As Wilder describes it, this Reptilian religion is something like ancestor worship crossed with Paganism crossed with a B movie.

Hers was an exalted position within the Illuminati. At any given time, there are only three Mother Goddesses in the entire world, which brings to mind Cisco Wheeler’s bizarre rant about three “Mothers of Darkness” who will someday “rule and reign with the antichrist as his queen when he takes his throne”. But Mother Goddesses, for some reason, have a limited shelf life. By tradition, they are slaughtered and replaced by their own daughters when they reach the age of 52. Wilder escaped this fate only because she began to recover her repressed memories in her forties.

The alternate title for Mother Goddesses, “Starfire”, is a reference to menstrual blood. In The Biggest Secret, Icke calls it the “female lunar essence”, treasured by the ancients. Virgin priestesses offered it up to the elite as a life-prolonging “nectar of the gods” (ew, right?). He tells us the word “ritual” derives from this practice, as ritu means “red” in some ancient language or other. To the Reptilians, however, this is more than just a ritual practice. Icke tells us, “Drinking menstrual blood has always been a feature of the reptilian bloodlines because they need blood to live in this dimension.” Without it, they cannot hold their human shape. (1, 295)
This  word starfire came from the late Sir Laurence Gardner, who first wrote about it in a series of Nexus magazine articles in 1998.

Reptilians sacrifice all their firstborn children as well as many other victims. Among these are children bred specifically for sacrifice. This “breeder” meme began with the very first account of Satanic ritual abuse, Michelle Remembers, in 1980. In 1988, Lauren Stratford became the first former Satanist to claim status as a “breeder” when she wrote about her recovered memories of bearing three children by her Devil-worshiping controller, Victor, between the ages of nineteen and twenty (yes, you read that correctly). Two of the infants were killed in snuff films, and the third (as she emotionally told Geraldo) was sacrificed on a Satanic altar.

Jennifer/Arizona presided over many hideous blood rituals that turned the Reptillians into ravenous, blood-swilling beasts. The faintest whiff of blood excites them tremendously. They’re addicted to it. After drinking their victims’ blood, they eviscerate the bodies and consume choice parts of their flesh. These lizard bacchanalias are usually held on Druidic holidays.

Because these atrocities were committed by her alters, Jennifer had no conscious recollection of them until entering therapy in 1989. As early as 1990, however, she began speaking out against the New World Order. She attracted the attention of Brian Desborough, a conspiranoid who claims to assist survivors of mind control. It may have been Desborough who brought Wilder to the attention of David Icke.

Unlike fellow Illuminati escapee Doc Marquis, Wilder doesn’t shy away from naming names. In her interview with Icke, she outed numerous people as Reptilian hybrids, including Josef Mengele, Pope John Paul II, Queen Elizabeth II and her mother the Queen Mother, Jay Rockefeller, Princess Margaret, Prince Charles, Prince Phillip, Baron Guy Rothschild, Tony Blair, Gerald Ford, Lyndon B. Johnson, Ronald and Nancy Reagan, Bill and Hillary Clinton (though she did not see Hillary shapeshift), George Bush Sr. and Jr., Jeb Bush, Henry Kissinger, Madeleine Albright, Newt Gingrich, and Bob Hope. If that last name seems a little out of place, check out the memoirs of Monarch Project survivor Brice Taylor, published the same year Wilder was interviewed by Icke. In fact, all the names on Wilder’s Reptilian list had already been dropped by alleged mind controlled sex slaves.

Wilder also implicated in the Reptilian conspiracy Zecharia Sitchin and Sir Laurance Gardner – the very same man who came up with the Starfire name. Between 1996 and his death in 2010, Gardner wrote several books detailing a hypothetical “dragon bloodline” (the Holy Grail) that began in ancient Sumer when Reptilian aliens called the Anunnaki genetically engineered a hybrid race. The late Sitchin wrote a long string of “nonfiction” books about a race of humanoid aliens who visited Earth from a tenth planet in our solar system, Nibiru, and masqueraded as the gods of ancient Sumer.

At rituals, Wilder said, Sitchin boasted about “getting rid” of people who interfered with his work. At this point in the interview, Icke revealed that Sitchin once warned him away from investigating the Reptilian presence on Earth. It’s entirely possible that Sitchin did do this, as he does not subscribe to the Reptilian theories of the Annunaki/Nephilim aliens. In fact, he describes those aliens as essentially human in appearance. Just how much he and/or Brian Desborough influenced Arizona Wilder is open to question. At the time of the David Icke interview, Wilder was also being accompanied and supported by a mysterious woman known only as “Miss Pinky”. Just what role she played in the whole thing is unclear.

Wilder went on to explain that the Reptilians had been pursuing the Aryan peoples around the universe for millennia in order to harvest their blood. The blood of the white race was particularly important to them for some reason (though blood is basically blood, no matter which race it is drawn from), and the blond-haired, blue-eyed variety was the one they wanted more than any other.

Wilder knew the Illuminati worked in concert with Reptilians and their hybrid offspring to dominate the world, but she was only sometimes privy to Illuminati plots. Her job was simply to summon the Old Ones and preside over rituals. But on one occasion, at Balmoral Castle, she overheard the Queen of England talking to an Arab-looking man she knew only as Fayed. They were discussing a marriage between Princess Diana – who was still married to Prince Charles at the time – and Fayed’s son, Dodi.
This fits in perfectly with David Icke’s theory of Diana’s death. He believes she was groomed even before her birth to be a Dianic sacrifice. Everything, from the timing of her birth to the site of her “car accident”, was painstakingly arranged by the Illuminati in accordance with ancient ritual protocol. Nothing could be left to chance.

Wilder said that the present head of the Illuminati is not a Rothschild, as former members John Todd, Bill Schnoebelen and Doc Marquis told us. It is actually a Reptilian-human hybrid known as Pindar, or the Marquis de Libeaux (this has been disputed by Illuminati-watchers like Stewart Swerdlow of Montauk Experiment fame, who insist a Rothschild is still top dog).

According to Wilder, Pindar in his Reptilian form is so terrifying that even the Queen Mum quailed before him. His name means “Penis of the Dragon”, and his personal totem is a golden phallus.
Pindar runs a sort of one-man Lebensborn, impregnating as many Aryan women as possible to perpetuate his glorious bloodline. He is the real father of Prince Charles, and perhaps William as well. You might remember him from my post on Dr. Bill Deagle (he thrice offered to make Dr. D. his second-in-command as Ruler of the World).
Not much else is known about this guy. Icke, in The Biggest Secret, says he lives in a chateau somewhere in the Alsace-Lorraine region.
Pindar may be The Man right now,

In 1989, Wilder was married to a man named Greene and had two children by him, a son and a daughter. This was when her recurrent bouts of depression and flashbacks of incestuous abuse began to trouble her, and she announced to her parents that she was entering therapy. She says they strongly discouraged her from doing so, telling her that nothing could be gained from digging into her past.
She has not divulged the name of her first therapist. She identifies him/her as a psychiatrist who ran a program for adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse. She chose this psychiatrist because she had heard him/her on a radio program, discussing his/her use of sodium amytal to assist his/her patients in the recovery of repressed memories. All sessions were video and audio taped. Later, she concluded that the Illuminati somehow manipulated her into consulting this particular doctor so that he/she could help the mind controllers gain further access to her brain.


She maintains that she was not led, influenced, or coerced during these interviews. She believes the information obtained was accurate. In a 2001 presentation, she also mentioned being in therapy with an internationally recognized therapist who specialized in treating victims of ritual abuse and mind control. (2) Whether this is the same man who administered the sodium amytal or not, we simply don’t know. It’s interesting that one well-known psychiatrist of the early ’90s, Dr. Bennett Braun, used sodium amytal, specialized in MPD/DID treatment, and helped patients “recover” repressed memories of Satanic ritual abuse.
When Jennifer’s parents learned from their son-in-law that Jennifer was describing ritualistic abuse during her therapy sessions, they relocated to another state and joined the False Memory Syndrome Foundation.

The Greenes divorced sometime in the early ’90s. Jennifer claims her ex-husband had become physically and emotionally abusive, yet was granted full custody of both children. As documented in an article by Desborough, Wilder spun a whole web of conspiracies around the custody battle – murder, intimidation, you name it.
By this time, she was convinced that her children were also being subjected to ritual abuse.
Sometime during her lizard years, Wilder found the time to earn a nursing degree, and has worked as a nurse, on and off, since that time. In 1991, at her own request, she was placed on federal disability due to the effects of Satanic harassment, namely Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and depression. The harassment included not only menacing phone calls, but multiple instances of abduction, drugging, and electroconvulsive shock. She was often followed by strangers in Naval Intelligence vehicles. Wilder was also impregnated on three occasions by “unknown means”.

In her 2001 presentation, Wilder explained that she used journaling and artwork as part of her therapy and “memory retrieval” process. This is commonly heard from SRA survivors.
She appears much more animated and expressive in this presentation than in the Icke interview. She doesn’t hesitate as frequently. And most significantly, none of her graphic artwork (all done prior to 1995) features any hint of lizards, lizardmen, or anything vaguely reptilian. It does feature Soviet scientists, ghoulish-looking occultists, dolphins, and lots of other non-lizardy things. She pointed out that a woman depicted in one drawing had “slit pupils”, and explained that there was blood dripping from her hands and face because she had just consumed human blood.
Gradually, she got into the Reptilian material. She described seeing small, pet dragons in the dungeon of Pindar’s home in Alsace-Lorraine, and mentioned that she had shared this information with Icke. We can only assume that even Icke didn’t find this credible enough to include in Revelations of a Mother Goddess, because there’s absolutely nothing about tiny pet dragons in there. (2)

Some of Arizona’s weirder claims

Let’s be honest, here: This is all batshit insane. But a few things Arizona told Icke are just a shade battier than the rest of it.

  • She was introduced to Hitler in 1960. She gives few details of this encounter, and Icke is curiously uninterested. I guess once you meet Mengele and conduct Satanic rituals for lizardpeople from Mars, running into Hitler 15 years after his death isn’t really a big thing.
  • People with DID are “drug-resistant”; drugs have no effect on certain alters. Never mind that they share the same bloodstream, and an overdose would kill them all.
  • Like all DID slaves, she has a photographic memory. This is the same claim made by the first Monarch Project survivor, Cathy O’Brien, in 1995. Wilder’s eidetic memory is not at all evident in the Icke interview. At one point, she can’t recall the name of the French president who succeeded Charles de Gaulle, even though she supposedly saw him at Satanic rituals. And one of the most famous galleries on the planet is named after him. Desborough explains this: “The reason for her memory lapses is that mind-controlled victims who are programmed to serve as intelligence couriers are subjected to a surgical procedure known as “brain-stem scarring”, which permits certain alter-personalities to receive a photographic memory. For obvious reasons, the front alter is never programmed to have such a photographic memory. Since Ms. Wilder’s alters which possess such a memory capability were never accessed during the interview, (which would have required knowledge of the appropriate access code) she was unable to recall certain topics.”
  • The royal lizards revert to their Reptilian shapes when they fall asleep. As pointed out in a Trash article on Wilder, this probably would have caught the attention of Prince Charles’s bunkmates at boarding school and in the military.
  • The Ark of the Covenant is under the control of the Illuminati, secreted in Egypt. Ark mock-ups are used in a certain Illuminati ritual.

In the four years after Revelevations of a Mother Goddess was released, Wilder gave a few presentations at New Age/conspiracy gatherings and was interviewed by conspiranoid radio hosts on several occasions. She is one of the very few people in this series who has not wholly embraced fundamentalist Christianity, but her anti-Pagan stance sets her far apart from the average New Age believer.

Brian Desborough, for one, was disappointed by the public reaction. In a weird and rambling essay about various conspiracies, he wrote that it had been his hope that the “public revelations concerning Illuminati matters provided by former Mother Goddess Arizona Wilder, would have prompted other Illuminati bloodline mind-controlled survivors to go public with their exposes. With one exception, this has not occurred. This is because other survivors who could verify the authenticity of Ms. Wilder’s claims have been deterred by the vile invective directed toward Ms. Wilder on this website [forum] by incredibly ill-informed individuals, who hypocritically end their vitriolic and racist E-Mail messages with the word ‘love’.”
It’s true that not everyone in the lizardpeople-from-Mars conspiracy subculture accepted Wilder’s stories. Some noted she had a hypnotized or drugged look about her in the video, while others simply didn’t find her Satanic blood-orgy tales convincing. One of Icke’s close associates at the time, Ivan Fraser, was openly skeptical about nearly everything she had to say, and felt that Icke had been set up by Illuminati-linked conspirators eager to discredit him. For the most part, however, Icke fans accepted Wilder’s account at face value.




This is my open missive to “The System” and to the world. “The System” includes any of those who planned, participated in, and have benefited from using me and /or abusing me for their illicit gain; whose thinking is, as far as I am concerned, “sociopathic” or “psychopathic” in that it allows them to justify actions that resulted in my pain, grief, and losses throughout my life, while apparently ignoring situations I was victimized by, past as well as current. My struggles to overcome what perpetrations and abuses were heaped upon me affected my children as well.I knew others who had been ritually abused from birth; brought into this world for a purpose not of their own choosing. They struggled too, and many of them have not been able to mentally and emotionally overcome their past. Some of those that I knew were permanently physically affected. A few took their own life because they could not see forward to their healing. Many were simply labeled as “mentally ill”. Again, “The System” is there to receive them and swallow them up, and make them “comfortably numb” and convince them that they did not see, hear, or experience what they in fact, did. Further, they have perpetuated the false idea that one can overcome the situation they are in simply by turning to the very system responsible for the abuse, and as long as the victim assumes the responsibility for their situation, be accepted back into the fold and rebury the perpetrations and abuse.This past year has been a pivotal point in my life as I began to reassess everything that I had thus far accepted as truth about my life, even though it did not completely make sense to me up to that time. Since my abrupt departure from southern California began and I discovered information that caused me to question the validity of what I had previously accepted for lack of a better explanation due to missing pieces, the truth began to fall into place, and the lies that I had not questioned before began to wobble and fall, one upon the other like dominos, as the truth about my life was exposed. It seemed that one lie about my life was dependent upon believing another, and so on. It was only upon examining and analyzing all the known data (leaving room for future data to be uncovered) that the truth about my life began to unfold.Therefore, I will now list what is known at this point by me, as well as the beliefs of investigators who have been investigating my situation on behalf of the Canadian Institute for Political Integrity, so we are all on the same page:I was genetically planned and brought into this life and assigned to the Nagel family by Wilder Penfield, the much “applauded” and “respected” neurosurgeon based in Montreal at McGill University, who was known, along with his associate, Ewen Cameron to be involved in research on the brain for the purposes of mind control (known in the U.S. as MK Ultra) and using persons, including children as subjects without their knowledge or consent.My life was a study and experiment in Wilder Penfield’s memory research on the brain. The condition of multiple personalities was purposely induced in me through repeated ritualistic trauma that included sexual abuse perpetrated upon me by my father and carried out through the ensuing years into my adulthood by others, who were of a military background, as well as being overseen by the Benedictine Monks (Viator) of Mt. Angel, Oregon. The purpose was to cover up the “symptoms” this research induced in me with the repeated programming techniques employed against my person. I was never asked if I wanted to be a part of this. I consider what has been done to me to be criminal acts.From the time I was married, my mother was constantly telling me that I had had a “difficult and stressful” childhood. I was told that I awoke screaming in terror in the night many times as a child. I remember a recurring nightmare that awakened me on a constant basis, which many years later turned out to be about my father’s molestations of me. I remember being taken to the Dr., a pediatrician who wore a bow-tie and a gray lab coat while I was young. My mother and the Dr. would conference together in the next room, shutting the door and talking in low voices on numerous occasions throughout my childhood and teen years. She took me to see another specialist when I was nine years old, who did an EEG and put me on medication, which my mother stated did not have the desired effect on me, so she discontinued the visits to this Doctor. When I was in fourth grade my parents bought a piano, and started me on piano lessons. My mother began to tell me, after the birth of my son years later, that she believed I had been molested by a “babysitter’s boyfriend” when I was pre-kindergarten age. I never asked her about it, and wondered why she continued to bring it up to me. She also constantly told me what a “stressful childhood” I’d had, and that I had a “very poor self image”; hence the piano lessons. She transferred me from one fourth-grade class to another, and did the same to me when I was in sixth grade. I had to endure the ostracism of my peers for this. My mother told me when I was in fifth grade that she was considering holding me back a year. I remember bursting out crying and exclaiming, “But what have I done wrong?” My father, also a grade school teacher, would come home from a day of teaching and tower over me and scream at me because I could not do the math homework that I was given weekly. At these times I remember my hearing fading out, and then my vision would go dark at that point. Later I realized this was another part of me coming to the surface to deal with these situations with my father.In 1989 when I first made a decision to seek answers to questions about my past, I told my parents of my decision over the phone. They made a special trip to see me and told me it would be a huge mistake to dig up the past; I was married now and had two beautiful children, they told me, and to let the past go. I told them that I could not, because for me it was not past. It was something I carried around daily, in the form of recurring episodes of depression. I wondered what it might be like not to be easily depressed. Further, I could not figure out why I should be depressed because I could not think of anything up until that time that would trigger the depression. What began to worry me was what my mother had been saying to me, and then thinking, “But it’s so much more than what she is saying…” I worried constantly for my children’s safety. I did not want to leave them with anyone. I had “flashes” of disturbing visual images that I could not make sense of at that time about my father and myself, and I was afraid to say anything to anyone because the very thought that something had happened between my father and myself was so abhorrent to me. I went on to get help from a psychiatrist who had a program that dealt with adult survivors of childhood sexual abuse. The psychiatrist had spoken on a radio program that I had heard about the use of Sodium Amytal to assist the subject to talk about repressed memories and all sessions were video and audio taped. Recently, I have discovered that Sodium Amytal had been a well researched subject at the Montreal Neurological Institute at McGill University in Montreal, Quebec since the 1940’s when it was first used by Dr. Jun Wada to presurgically evaluate where the language center and memory centers in each brain hemisphere were prior to surgery for cases of epilepsy when surgery to remove a section of the brain tissue was the last option to stop seizure activity. I now believe it was no accident or chance that I had Sodium Amytal Interviews, along with a BEAM study; the results of which mysteriously disappeared from the Dr.’s office. Not an accident either that a SPECT study was done at that time; often used in conjunction with Sodium Amytal induction as well for the purposes of mapping the areas of the brain, e.g. the hippocampus, that is involved with memory storage and retrieval of spatial and visual memory. I suggest that the surface appeal of the Amytal Interviews for me was not the purpose of my controllers who I now also believe sent me to this Dr. The purpose that was intended was for an evaluation of cues known only to them through intravenous induction of drugs (Sodium Amytal and Brevital) which they knew could be used to put some areas of the brain to sleep so that designated areas could then be evaluated by the visual and auditory responses engendered by questioning, along with a record of physiological responses recorded by the anesthesiologist/ anesthetist present to monitor the vital signs during the interview.To those at this point who have heard that these interviews are not accurate, I spoke about many things in these interviews, not the least of which was a childhood incident that involved a girl and her sister about my age at the time, who were driven by their uncle to my home, where I would be picked up. We were all being taken to “rituals”. I was able to state the name of this girl, her sister, and two male cousins who sometimes seemed to be brought along, as well as her uncle. Five years after this interview, I actually met this girl, whom I did not recognize as an adult, at a support group for survivors of Ritual Abuse. We found that we had grown up within a very short distance from each other, and she had attended school in the same school district as me, as well as attending school where my mother taught classes in the same time period as the events described. She verified the details of what was recorded, including having those memories as well. She later listened to this portion of the tape and was amazed that all these details were recorded. During these interviews, I was not led or coached. There were many details that were given, however not any answers as to how all this started and more importantly, why. I state this because my own mother, in the past year told me the False Memory Syndrome Foundation has stated these interviews had been done to instill “false memories”. She and my father had joined FMSF many years ago after they hurriedly moved out of the state I lived in when my then husband repeated to my parents details of what he had heard in the taped interview. At this time I believe the FMSF was formed, among other reasons, to negate the theory of Wilder Penfield as well as others researching the evidence that ALL memory is recorded in the brain. I believe the real purpose of the work of FMSF is to provide a support structure of denial to perpetrators since they are all on the same team and then secondarily to negate this modality as being accurate to access repressed memories.During that time and for the next fifteen years, my parents and my husband’s family stopped speaking to me. My family assisted my husband to obtain full physical and legal custody of my children. My mother even wrote a letter to the family court judge labeling me a “trouble-maker” and praising my by now ex-husband as the responsible, caring, and loving parent, and then both of my parents signed the letter. My husband had embarked upon a systematic program of mental, emotional and finally physical abuse of me; even battering me by grabbing my hair and banging my head into the wall repeatedly, while he held our daughter in his arms. He was made to look the qualified parent in the family court system, while I was made to appear mentally deranged and out of control. I had sought help for myself and for my children, who were showing signs and symptoms of having been involved in ritualistic abuse, later confirmed, per the observations of psychiatrists and therapists, who were also not allowed to testify in family court on their behalf. For attempting to assist my children, physical and legal custody were taken away from me and I was made to leave my home so that my then husband had the freedom to move his girlfriend in to act as their “mother”. I was placed on federal disability at my request in 1991, because the consequences of harassment induced included severe post traumatic stress disorder and depression. I used the ensuing years to recover memories and deal with resulting and constant harassment.The “harassment” I am speaking about included being kidnapped on many occasions, drugged, the use of electroconvulsive shock while in restraints with resulting after-effects of confusion, temporary memory loss and recorded seizure activity, impregnated on three occasions by unknown and nonsexual, nonconsensual means, harassing phone calls at all hours, mysterious and frightening messages left for me on answering machines, knocking on the front door of places I was living at all hours of the night, most especially at 3 AM, DDT sprayed inside the apartment on the kitchen table and in the roommate’s room in one situation, being followed at various times and when least expected by plainly marked “G 41” military vans everywhere I went- sometimes with a man dressed in a Navy uniform stepping out and standing next to the vehicle and watching me as I ran errands, only to get back in his government van with government plates and continue this same exercise for the whole day, my car being rear-ended and totaled, being physically assaulted at work on a psychiatric unit by “ female patient”, who kicked me in the stomach so hard that it sent me into the wall and then screaming out at me in front of all the staff present, “ I will kill you when I get out of here; and if I don’t, Robert Caldwell will…he’s going to get you…”(This man was Naval Intelligence, per his business card). At another psychiatric unit in which I was working so that I could pay attorney fees for an upcoming custody dispute, I was called into the nurse manager’s office and it was stated to me that two patients had complained that I was going into their room at night during bed checks, and shining a flashlight in their eyes and stating to them that,“Satan is going to kill you unless you go back to the cult…” I was told that “administration” required that I be interviewed by one of their staff psychiatrists. I asserted my innocence and walked out. There were many incidents similar to the above stated occurrences.I decided in 1999 that I wanted and needed to go back to work, because I had done as much work as could be done to recover memories and to come to terms with what had been done to me. Unfortunately, in 1998 the last time I was kidnapped and worked over i.e. given huge amounts of electric shock by unknown perpetrators, (which resulted in a hospitalization) I did not realize that I was being “prepared” i.e. programmed, for an interview with David Icke, a former sportscaster turned conspiracy publicist in order to perpetrate The System’s media lie and program. That interview took place within 5 months of the last episode, and individuals “magically” appeared in my life to connect me with David Icke. During this “interview” I was instructed not to motion or gesture with my hands by David Icke. As well, the decision was made that I could not wear my glasses; so I was unable to see as well.I was being prepared for this role by as early as 1996, and was programmed to change my name legally to “Arizona Wilder”; “Wilder” being Penfield’s first name and Arizona having to do with the follow-up and continued research of Wilder Penfield’s work on me by Arizona State University in Tucson.In spite of the many abuses and crimes perpetrated against me, I continued to attempt to have a life of my own, never realizing the full extent of my involvement and victimization until recently.I was hired at Clearview Convalescent Center as the director of nursing in 2007 after working there for the prior year as a house supervisor. In 2006, I had changed my name legally back to “Jennifer Nagel”. I had ceased having anything to do with speaking in “conspiracy “circles because I had begun to question my own actions of making a name change and doing the interview with David Icke. I had never wanted to be part of anything that could mislead others and I could also see that I still did not understand why I had made the name change to “Arizona Wilder”, or why I had done this interview, so I never laid any of this to rest, but continued to research.I have recently become aware that my prior naïve conclusions, that secret “groups”/organizations within the system, operating “subversively and covertly” who are responsible for these abuses/ criminal acts that no one else knows about is somewhat misleading. The truth is that the system knows and shares all the information about its existence and ongoing activity, and is kept informed of persons that have been the subject of the attention from these “groups”. In fact, there is no secret within the system’s membership about these groups; they are known entities operating and funded within the system. In short- Everybody knows about the “BIG BOYS” behind the scenes.My parents/ family have apparently benefited from my involvement in this research, as I have recently been informed that my parents had established a trust fund for payment of what had been done to me throughout my childhood. Currently, I am told by investigators that there are “millions of dollars” in that fund. I found this out at the same time as I found out that one of my sisters, Theresa, appointed trustee of this fund by my parents, was planning, along with some other family members (sister(s)) to prevent me from ever leaving California to join my husband Glen Kealey, and instead have me placed on a conservatorship, in order to increase their benefits from this fund. I was advised to leave California earlier than I had originally planned to because of this, which I did.The fact that I was denied entrance to Canada and given a one year exclusion order built upon lies of CBSA flunkies and then had to travel by car across the country to a small town in the U.S. directly across the border from the area of my Canadian husband’s hobby farm where, since obtaining my New York state nurse’s license last September 9, 2010 I have been unable to secure any work as a nurse in spite of years of experience and a glowing recommendation from my last employer by facilities here who continue to advertise openings for RNs on a monthly basis, lends credence to the probability of conspiracy by an organized group (“human resources”) with an agenda designed to prevent my employment, thus making me financially insolvent, as well as alone and separated from my husband. I was given information at the time of one of my interviews that I later found out from personnel to be untrue, i.e. RN positions available at time of interview even though the administrator told me in the presence of two nurse managers that they were interviewing for these positions. That CEO, who had been a director of nursing in another nursing home in Ogdensburg prior to her current position as CEO, and the new director of nursing (who took over at the facility that she left) both separately told me they would be in contact with me though I never heard from either of them again. I, too, as a director of nursing used to interview people for positions, so I know the process.In my years of working as a nurse and operating under my prior naive belief that my employers knew only the facts about me pertinent to my employment , I did not feel my personal life was any employer’s business, because it had nothing to do with my work as a nurse, or the quality of my work. I have never brought this background up at any job, because it was not essential to my work. I have never discussed my personal life with any individual at work. It has, however been brought up to me, in certain instances, by persons in the workplace in a superior position to me, (i.e. administration and nursing management) in order to send a clear message to me that everything about me is “known”, and as stated above, it has been and would be used against me.By my record I have already proven that, in spite of all the traumas and abuses perpetrated against me throughout my life, that I am an asset to any company, and that there is no excuse that can be found not to hire me. I have greater empathy and understanding about suffering and trauma than most people ever will. I have proven that I can work well with others and make sound decisions based on the realities of circumstances.I suggest that any company or corporation that would not hire me due to “assumptions” and stories found on the internet by clerks (in an attempt to have deniability), while never once asking me about my life, losses, what I have learned, and how I can help others, is participating in at the very least, immoral, unethical, and illegal activity.Today my message to the “System” is this: You created the problems on this planet and in this universe and in the end will take responsibility for that. You have destroyed the lives of people throughout the centuries for your goals. Your plan for me was in effect before I was even born. I never had a choice about what happened. You have genetically and socially engineered countless millions of people throughout history. The details and program for others was perhaps not the same as mine, but the intent was the same. The biggest lie of all that your self-serving system preaches is that people who are simply trying to survive day to day in the system you created and perpetuate, have freedom. Freedom to what? Freedom to you (The System) means… “No charge”. In reality, people don’t have the freedom to think for themselves. This is how you have justified the genetic engineering you’ve done and the decision made long ago to shelve the current model (of Worker Bees) for an 11.0 model of slaves.

I do not believe that what you have done and continue to do to me, as well as others for the sake of your centuries old business plan is justifiable. I do not believe that what you are about to do and blame on “acts of God” and that will result in the deaths of millions in the northern hemisphere is justifiable, so know this: You “ creator God”, have a Bosscalled “CREATION” that you will one day very soon answer to for what you have been doing. Your BOOK OF LIFE will be read aloud.

My greatest sadness is knowing that what CREATION intended for this universe was hijacked, stolen, and perverted for use of a so-called select group who consider themselves so superior to everyone else that they can justify the absolute lie of “God”.

I cannot change any of you. I, though, made a choice that none of you can do anything about; that I now serve CREATION. I am giving notice to all of you that CREATION is very much involved in what has transpired in the last year in all of this.

How will you answer when one day you stand before CREATION and are asked these questions: 1) What did you know? 2) When did you know it? 3) What did you do about it?



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